Sitting Shiva

(Verse 1) /Where to start, where to start, so many moments picked apart/ Thought that was where the story stopped, but yet you brought another arc/ A twist that you had insisted on, just keeping in the dark/ Ye, another tale of turning marks into a scar/ You pushed to see the clouds that I had fought to tuck away/ And when I brought them into view, you went and called upon the rain/ Downplayed the significance, assured me all the same/ Just vent within these instruments, the past is fraught with pain/ Word's don't do it justice, what it meant for to share with you/ Excavate those corpses, open up, and lay them bare with you/ Cliche turns of phrases like, "I Love You" and "I Care For You"/ Have been but all replaced, I wish nothing but despair for you/ Handed out that hope like it was just enough for me to hang/ Played me for the guilty party, shackled me in chains/ Funny all the nerve you find when time has all but waned/ How it stopped was how it started, ‘nother lover, hidden shame/

(Verse 2) /Not a bit of this is fiction, though I wish it all was written/ Just a clever little tale that I whipped up and got to spitting/ Sure I think about you, but it’s you, as if you died/ Muse upon our memories, our tailor made goodbye/ The honesty you asked of me, apparently alluded you/ I’m guessin’ what to do with you, apparently diluted you/ I wonder if you’re empty, if there’s anything consuming you/ Apologies, I’m making peace, with all I had to do with you/ This is not my absolution from my part in our diffusion/ But mine was not betrayal, nor shrink wrapped in a illusion/ When we separated first, you asked of me to take that drive/ When I call about your cheating, you tell me your too high/ So I do it all in person, for two hours, and to your eyes/ But you won’t pick up the phone, you tell me that your too high/ So toast a fallen angel and the sky from whence she fell/ And for everything you find when you looked beyond her veil/